Showing posts with label Sisters. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Sisters. Show all posts

Monday, February 20, 2017

Quiet




There are times when I feel unloved.
When those around me seem like figments of my imagination.
Their thoughts foreign and filled with indifference.

During those unloving moments,
my thoughts race,
my heart sinks,
I wish for just a moments peace.

During those unloving moments,
my skin feels dark and covered with rashes.
My lips cracked and bleeding.

There are times when I feel unloved.
When the silence and the dark mingle together.
I try to love myself but sometimes things are just so quiet.
Jen A. Durand

Completed Works
Secrets, Lies, & Betrayal Series:

The Virgins Club:

Lipstick Diaries:

Solo Romances:
Lasting Kind Of Love

True Match Arrangements:

The Young and The Powerful

Monday, February 6, 2017

Livia Penton – Pearl Moon


      Pearl Moon is the exploration of how a couple recovers from betrayal. When the trust shared is broken, can it be repaired? Livia has had her life turned on its head. She is preparing to give birth to a child she did not want and was entirely sure she would not damage.
      Her best friends. Her sisters have entered into loving relationships as she stands in ruins of her own. Sei ji is the man she chose and he pulls away from anything permanent. The announcement of their impending parenthood sent him running for the door. It kept him gone for months. Now he is back wanting a second chance.
      Livia is faced with the possibility of having the man she loves by her side. The question she has to answer first is whether or not she wants him. Does she believe he has changed? Can she trust him to stay by her side? Will he stay by her side? All of these thoughts plague her because it is no longer just her.
      Livia has “the parasite” to worry about and care for.
      This character was so great to write. She expresses so many emotions. Because she has so many of them. Those pregnancy hormones are real. Deep down she is a romantic who wants what every women wants. Love and loyalty.

Here is an exclusive of Pearl Moon –Excerpt from Chapter 6

      Livia looked at Sei and rubbed her belly as her anxiety started to rise. Sei looked completely at ease. Nothing about him revealed any sort of tense.
      “Do you want to start first,” Livia asked.
      “How are you?”
      “I am fine.”
      “And the baby?”
      Livia tensed even more even as she tried to maintain her calm. Stress was a bad thing and her baby needed calm. It needed peace.
      “The baby is fine.”
      Sei nodded, “I want to start over.”
      Livia blinked. Then shook her head. She was a little thrown by the frankness of his announcement. Then again she shouldn’t have. Sei was not one to crouch things in ambiguous terms.
      “Sorry?”
      “I told you months ago. I want to start over. I want to build something with you. Something stronger then what we had before.”
      Livia shook her head. “No.”
      Sei leaned forward. “Why not?”
      “Because I cannot trust you,” Livia said as she shook her head, “You are not trustworthy.”
      “Livia.”
      She placed her arms onto her desk, “You ran. I told you, I was pregnant. You accused me of trying to trap you. Then jumped in one of your cars and left.”
      “I was blindsided.”
      Livia laughed sharply. “And I wasn’t? I had a person growing in me. I did not have months to get used to the idea of it happening. I had to deal with it then. Alone.”
      “I came back.”
      “And when you came back you looked like someone had put you through a meat grinder.”
      “Some things happened that were not under my control.”
      “Are you really trying to push the blame off of yourself?”
      “No,” Sei said as he looked into her eyes, “I just wanted to explain. I loss control of things for awhile but those factors are no longer present and I learned from the experience.”
      Livia studied him. His mussed hair, curved nose, and thick lips were all of the things that trapped her. He looked earnest. He sounded like he meant what he said. And Livia wanted to believe him. She wanted to believe in him.
*End of Excerpt

Completed Works

Secrets, Lies, & Betrayal Series:

The Virgins Club:

Lipstick Diaries:

Solo Romances:

The Young and The Powerful

Monday, December 5, 2016

Sister's Goodbye ~ Wintr's Homecoming



Jinx did not like goodbyes. She wasn’t good at it. Letting go of who and what she loved often felt like her heart was being ripped out of her chest. And her lungs were being clenched in iron fist.
Her parents had already left. One died and the other was hidden away in the recesses of her mind. She had no uncles, aunts, siblings, or doting grandparents.
She only had Livia and Nicole. The pair were the closest she had to sisters. They each held a good bit of her heart.
Today one of them was going to leave her to live in some mountain in the middle of nowhere. As if she couldn’t get her nature fix by visiting upstate?
“I can’t believe you are doing this.”
“It is the opportunity of a lifetime. A grant to study the Grey wolf population in the Balkans.”
“There are wolves here. Have you tried the Bronx zoo?”
Nicole rolled her eyes and adjusted the strap of her carry on. They were standing just outside of the airport security line. She was wearing a pair of dusted grey jeans and a dark green sweater.
“I will be back sooner then you think.”
“Then why am I living with a new roommate?”
Livia slipped an arm through Jinx’s and frowned. “Because I am the world’s greatest and you hate living alone.”
It was true. She hated coming home to empty rooms and ringing silence. She craved companionship and avoided romantic entanglements. Having a roommate meant there was always someone to come home to.
“You don’t cook.”
“Neither does Nicole.” Livia protested as Nicole smiled at the two of them.
“She does laundry.”
“I’ll learn.”
“Great so all of my whites will turn pink or grey in the near future”
Livia scoffed and Jinx stuffed her hands into the pocket of her cardigan. Nicole wasn’t going to change her mind. This grant was her dream. The Holy Grail and she was going to grip it with both hands.
With a heavy sigh she heaved her shoulders in acceptance. “Don’t talk to strangers.”
“Everyone will be a stranger.”
“Then just don’t talk.”
Nicole wrinkled her nose. “Yes Mom.”
“Don’t just eat junk food. Sneak in some vegetables every once in a while.”
This was a day she always knew was coming. Everyone has to leave eventually. This time it was only for a little while. In the future it would be forever.
Nicole reached our and took their hands. “Don’t fight to often. Don’t delete my national geographic documentaries and take sometime to enjoy more then the club scene. And your office.”
Jinx wasn’t going to cry. That wasn’t her style. Instead she pulled Nicole into a hug.
“You are going to miss having Starbucks on tap.”
“Probably.”
Livia stepped forward and hugged her. “Talk to all the handsome men.”
Nicole’s eyes sparkled as she stepped back. “All the handsome strangers I can find.”
She pulled out her phone and flashed it to the guard before making her way to the metal detectors.
Jinx could not shake the feeling of unease in her gut. As if this moment was the beginning of a much bigger event and her future was in for a big shake up. Her instincts never failed her.
Something was coming and it was unlikely to be something she’d welcome with open arms. She hated change of any sort. Especially of the major life changing events variety.

Completed Works

Secrets, Lies, & Betrayal Series:

The Virgins Club:

Lipstick Diaries:

Solo Romances:

The Young and The Powerful

Friday, December 2, 2016

I Was That Friend...


I was that friend, 
with the coke bottle glasses.
The tightly gripped notebook.
And the fear of attention.

I was that friend,
constantly telling you to get down from there.
To walk with care.
To do your homework.

I was that friend,
you would call when you were finally ready to listen to reason.
Or you would tease because she was writing or reading.

I was that friend,
who cried when you did.
Who laughed when you did.
Who fought with you like only siblings would.

I am the friend,
constantly checking on your welfare.
Encouraging you to reach for your dreams.
Encouraging you to laugh because you will live longer.
And who talks too much on occasion.

I am that friend,
because you are my friend.

Completed Works

Secrets, Lies, and Betrayal Series:

The Virgins Club:

Lipstick Diaries:
Things Left Unsaid


Thursday, October 6, 2016

Witch's Reflections: Excerpt Chapter 4

Witch's Reflection

Chapter Four





 ‘Deep even breaths, Selah.’
‘Deep and even breaths.’
The inside of her eyelids were a bright pink as daylight streamed through the windows of her studio washing it in light.
Her legs, exposed by her stone washed jean shorts, pressed against the cold-waxed wooden floors. Making her skin prickle with goosebumps. Selah took another deep breath as she tried to ignore the distractions and focus.
Her thoughts began to fade with each breath. Her magic sparked and she felt an internal warmth spread through the cells of her body. Selah head fell back as her surroundings faded away.
The sound of her music no longer pumped through her ears. The feel of the ground beneath her legs disappeared. She was standing now. Her jeans were replaced by what felt like a stiff type of leather.
Her eyes drifted open. Her nose wrinkled as she looked around the room. Selah was in a small hut surrounded by dirt and the scent of burning flesh. Poverty surrounded her.
Sand and dust covered every surface. Selah felt as if she was being suffocated by it. She looked down at the grime on her skin in disgust. She hated being dirty. It has always a pet peeve of hers.
“Jarita.”
Selah rubbed a spot of dirt on her arm and looked around the tiny room. It was so bare. Devoid of any personal touch.
 Her scalp burned and itched. Her hair hung in limp oily curls around her face. Everything was covered in dirt. It was everywhere and coated her skin.
“Jarita.”
“Jarita!”
Selah jumped at the name as she twisted around towards the voice. Reflections were like an echo of the past. Witches watched their former lives looking for lessons and truth. She could not move or talk.
Her thoughts were not completely her own. It was like watching a film, she could not fast-forward through. Selah was only an observer.
Facts echoed through her mind. A woman dressed in a bark brown dress stood in the doorway. Her face was painted with archaic symbols no one in their coven had used since the late 1800s.
Thema. The leader of their coven, and Jarita’s matron. She stood at the door. Tears streamed down the older woman’s face. Her dark brown skin glistened with sweat and her eyes were rimmed with red.
“Bring  Ebunoluwa water.”
Jarita nodded carefully.
“Hurry.”
Thema turned and walked out of the room. She’d issued her orders and did not need to see it carried out. Jariata picked up a jug as her resentment bubbled beneath the surface.
She was a servant in the eyes of the tribe. A slave because of her orphan status. They treated her like a burden. Only worth carrying out their orders.
‘It is all Ebunoluwa’s fault,’ whispered a familiar angry voice in the back of her mind.
The voice had been murmuring in the back of her mind for months. Opening her eyes and showing her the injustice of her position. Who she should blame?
Jarita walked out of her hut and started down the path to the watering hole. The sounds of drums could be heard through out the village.
It had been a constant since Ebunoluwa had fallen sick. All prayed for their future leader’s heath and recovery. All except Jariata.
Jariata prayed for Ebunoluwa’s death. The hot sun made the sand burn beneath her feet. Jariata lifted her face to take in the sunlight.
‘Her death will happen soon. Just one more dose.’
Jariata said nothing as she continued to walk. Ebunoluwa was loved by most of the village. Her supposed sweet nature and easy smile misled everyone.
She saw past the thin veneer of kindness to the disaster beneath the surface. Ebunoluwa would destroy the Yemoja clan if she lived to lead.
‘Two drops. Two drops in her water, and she will not make it beyond the night. I promise.’
Jariata arrived at the watering hole and dipped the jug into it. The water bubbled as the jug filled. Once full she hefted it over her head and started down the path back to the village.
What she was doing was wrong.
Jariata knew Ebunoluwa loss was the greater good. It was what was best for the good of the clan. She looked innocent but Jariata could see what others in the clan missed. Ebunoluwa was a poison. A blight on all that they were.
Selah started to panic as she heard the dark thoughts filtering through her mind. This was her past life? She used to be some schizophrenic murderer?
‘Two drops in her water and you will save them all.’
A light giggled filled her mind as she entered the village and turned towards the home of Thema. Of course he was happy. This is what he wanted. What he had been pushing her towards.
She pushed the cloth covering the door to the side and walked into the main room. Men and women sat through out the room praying. Jariata walked past them all to the last room in the corner. A beaded cloth covered the door.
Jariata entered Ebunoluwa’s sick room. To find Thema bent over the sick girl as she chanted. Selah watched in horror as Jariata brought the jug to the small table beside.
She wanted to do something to stop her. To change the past. She wanted to drop the jug but instead her hands tipped the jug over and filled the cup partly.
Looking around carefully she reached into her pocket and pulled out a small glass vial filled with clear liquid.
Jariata looked over her shoulder and opened the vial with her thumb. She watched Thema as she tipped the liquid into the cup.

‘Two drops. Two more drops and the threat would be gone.’

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