Monday, February 20, 2017

Quiet




There are times when I feel unloved.
When those around me seem like figments of my imagination.
Their thoughts foreign and filled with indifference.

During those unloving moments,
my thoughts race,
my heart sinks,
I wish for just a moments peace.

During those unloving moments,
my skin feels dark and covered with rashes.
My lips cracked and bleeding.

There are times when I feel unloved.
When the silence and the dark mingle together.
I try to love myself but sometimes things are just so quiet.
Jen A. Durand

Completed Works
Secrets, Lies, & Betrayal Series:

The Virgins Club:

Lipstick Diaries:

Solo Romances:
Lasting Kind Of Love

True Match Arrangements:

The Young and The Powerful

Friday, February 17, 2017

The Proposal – (Wintr's Homecoming Novella)

It is not what he says, but the way that he says it.

We are not perfect. I am not perfect. But he makes me feel faultless.

      Jinx slowly lifted the zipper of her skirt and tucked her silk yellow blouse in. It was date night and Dominic was taking her somewhere special. She smiled as she bent foreword to take in her reflection. She had gathered her curls into a high pineapple bun and purposely curled her bangs to frame her face. The “V” of her shirt showcased her breasts without reveling too much.
      Breathing deeply Jinx began to hum beneath her breath. Loving someone as much as she loved him should have sent her running. It had in the beginning. But the time he invested in building the trust between them eased the worst of her fears.
      A year ago she had been a happy single. Dominic had been a part of a past she never wanted to remember. His reappearance sparked a change. Love and adventure rushed in to shake things up, and wake her from the quiet cycle of life she had been stuck in.
      “You look beautiful.”
      The deep rumble of his voice spread warmth through her. She picked up her pearl earrings and turned towards him, a smile spread across her lips. Dominic wore a fitted black Karl Lagerfeld suit. Her mouth watered at the sight of those cleans lines and the way the arms molded to his biceps. She was a lucky girl.
      “You are looking pretty handsome yourself.”
      Dominic’s grey eyes glinted as he approached her, a satisfied smirk on his lips. Jinx slipped on her earrings as she met him halfway. His hand slipped onto the small of her back as he bent his head forward to kiss her lips. Jinx fell into his embrace with an eagerness she used to resent.
      Dominic had burrowed so deeply under her skin she could not explain where he began and she ended. When he pulled back she placed her hands on his neck and caressed the line of his jaw softly.
      “I love you with everything I have.”
      Dominic pushed at the collar of her blouse to revel their mated mark. “I love you with everything we have.”
****
      Dominic placed his hand onto Jinx’s knee as they crossed the bridge out of the city. She leaned back and turned to face him. It had been a crazy year. So many things had changed. They had been tested and every near miss brought them closer together. Their connection was so much more then he ever thought it would be.
      Jinx had no idea what he was planning. He wanted it that way. Otherwise she would find an excuse to avoid it. She did not like sudden changes. He had to ease her into things. Streetlights flicked over her truffle brown skin. Highlighting her high cheekbones and almond shaped eyes. She bit plump cashmere brown lips and placed her hand over his.
      This was his future, and present.
****
      Dominic drove through the gates of a manor. Jinx frowned as she looked around. They were forty minutes out of the city. She thought they were going to dinner at an out of the way restaurant. Instead he had brought her here. Trees lined the graveled road they drove down.
       “Where are we?”
      Dominic said nothing as he pulled into a circular drive and stopped the car. He got out and Jinx's mind started racing as she looked out of her window. Dominic pulled her door open. Even in the dark Jinx could see the elaborate design of the manor. It had tall archways and columns.
      Jinx faltered at the sight of hundreds of lit candles and strewn rose petals. A table with an emerald green tablecloth and covered plates sat at the entrance of the home. Her breath caught in her throat as Dominic stepped in front of her and lowered himself onto a single knee.
Her brain stopped functioning. This wasn’t happening. They agreed a wedding was unnecessary. The thought of the ceremony sent her into a panic. They were already pretty much stuck with each other. No one was going anywhere. But to take that final step seemed too much for her to deal with. As irrational as that was.
      He pulled a dark blue box out of his pocket and held it up. Jinx’s hands clenched as she fought the urge to reach out and touch it. Her heartbeat pumped hard. This was not happening. She was home. Sleeping. Dreaming.     
      “You are opinionated. Stubborn. And often more then I can handle.”
      Jinx chuckled even as she stared down at the tiny object in his hand. It wasn’t a ring. He is messing with her. He had to be.
      “But I love you. I love our life together and want to continue the future we are building,” Dominic continued as he opened the ring box to revel an amber set gold ring.
      Jinx knees weakened and she pitched forward slightly. Dominic pulled the ring out and took her left hand in his. This was happening. He was proposing and Jinx could not move. She did not know where to go.
      “You used to be afraid I would leave first. I used to be terrified something would happen to send running further then ever before. I am sure you are looking for the nearest exit even now.”
      “Then why are you doing this,” Jinx exclaimed finally able to say something.
      “Because allowing fear to guide us will only cause regret. We deserve better,” Dominic slipped the ring onto her finger then turned her hand palm up to pressed a kiss there.
      “Marry me.”
      “That is not a question.”
      Dominic stood up and stepped closer to her. His hands settled onto her waist as he looked down at her. Love radiated off of him. Jinx placed her hand over his heart as she stared into his grey eyes.
      “I am not asking you. I have learned by now that giving you an option in these matters usually ends in you getting your way.”
Jinx smiled wryly and looked at the ring. At its very center was a dragonfly stuck in mid flight. Its wings fully spread. The ring fit her. It was not too big or ordinary.
      “I am not the best with orders either.”
      “You follow them more often then you don’t,” Dominic replied as he slid a hand up the side of her rib cage then slipped it under her chin.
      He tilted her face up and bent forwards to kiss the tip of her nose then pressed his forehead to hers. “Marry me. Marry me and I promise the years we have together will be filled with more good things then bad.”

Jen A. Durand
Author of The Secrets, Lies, and Betrayal Series and The Virgins Club, www.Durandpublishing.net

Completed Works

Secrets, Lies, and Betrayal Series:

The Virgins Club:

Lipstick Diaries:

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

First Impressions (Excerpt from "Stuck Between Two Millionaires")





5



Ari dropped to her knees and crawled under the desk to check the wires of the server located there. Her boss had submitted multiple complaints about a loud noise. She was more of a programmer than a technician.
Kyle, the world’s biggest coward and the only supervisor over her, insisted she be the one to go. Everyone else was afraid of Mr. Devon Montgomery. He was well known for having a wicked temper and a forthright personality. She was the sacrificial lamb.
Mr. Montgomery was tall, dark, and handsome. Smooth umber skin, muscular build, and rich. He made even the gay males in the secretarial pool drool when he walked by. When they weren’t trying to avoid looking bored or incompetent.
Biting her lip, she used a screwdriver to pull off one of the protective wall casings. She had already turned on the server and hadn’t noticed any excessive noise.
It wasn’t as if she did not have anything better to do. Her morning had been light, she’d spent most of it trying to decide whether she should take a break from seeing Grant for a while.
This weekend had been fun and normal for them, but it also threw her heart for a loop. They’d fallen into a routine and while her mind understood she was not the one for him. Her heart was starting to write checks it could not afford. Especially now that she had Sofia.
Seeing him cradle the puppy to his chest brought up unwanted images of other little things he would look hot cradling. Ari knew being “Friends with Benefits” with her best friend was dangerous.
But her best friend was also a reasonably well-endowed stud who loved her and would do everything in his power not to shatter her heart.
Purposely…
Of course his breaking her heart was inevitable if she let herself imagine something more significant then friendship.
*                *                *
Devon walked into his office to find the unexpected, but definitely welcome, sight of a wiggling round ass in a skirt beneath the side of his desk facing the door. His day was looking up, Devon thought with a smirk before clearing his throat.
He heard a slight gasp before the wiggling increased and the most purposely frumpy person he had ever seen reveled herself. Her glasses were huge. Her suit was fitted, but was an unflattering shade of navy and at least three years old.
Her hair was pulled back into a low bun, but there were slender tendrils of curls framing her round face. She nervously brushed at her skirt before clearing her throat.
“Mr. Montgomery.”
“What were you doing?”
 “I was sent to look into your complaints about the server. I was checking into the wiring.”
Devon nodded. “And?”
She smiled. “Nothing so far. I could replace the server, but the requisition would take a few days.”
The buzzing from the server was annoying, but being disconnected from the network for a few days was not in the cards for him. Eyeing the girl he walked over to his desk and dropped the file in his hand.
She stood to the side waiting for him to dismiss her. Devon unbuttoned his black blazer and shrugged it off. He could take pity on her and send her away.
He had things to do. Clients to call. But she looked did not look as scared of him as most of his employees did. It was intriguing.
“What’s your name?”
“Ari Carter.”
Ms. Carter… She nervously pulled on her sleeves and took a step back. He smirked. His brother, Fin, always accused Devon of focusing to hard on work. Not looking for the fun in life. Maybe, he was right.
“How long have you worked here?”
“Two years.”
Devon took a seat and eyed the chair across from him. The look of horror on her face was comical. It was obvious she wanted to bolt for the door. She wouldn’t do it though. No one was that brave.
At thirty years old, Devon was the CEO of this company because he had a reputation for making money and cuts. He was well aware of the fact most of his employees lived in fear of getting on his bad side and losing their jobs.
Ari sat down and tucked her legs together. A tense smile on her lips as she looked at him attentively.
“What do you do for the company?”
“I am a full time programmer and a part time tech. At least when it comes to you.”
“Just me?”
“You have managed to put the fear of impromptu firing in minds of most of the IT department.”
“Except you?”
“I’m good at my job.” Ari remarked with a dispassionate shrug.
Devon smiled at the bold statement. “Good to know.”
The smirk she gave him brightened her entire face. Though she tried to hide it, she was beautiful. Ari toyed with the edge of her glasses.
“I should get back to my work. If you have any more problems with the server. I will put in the forms to replace it.”
“Okay.”
Giving him another tense smile, she stood up. “Have a good day.”
“How about making it a good night as well?”
She looked surprised by the offer. Devon stood and circled the desk to look down at her. He had a feeling Ms. Carter, all cleaned up, would be a heart stopper.
“Let’s have dinner.”
“Does this count as sexual harassment?” Ari asked with a mischievous look in her eyes.
“Maybe inappropriate behavior.”
“HR is going to hate having to process those papers.”
Devon respected her lack of fear and knew she was enjoying this as much as he did. Taking a step back he offered her a smiled.
“They love me up there.”
“I don’t mix business and pleasure.”
Devon chuckled. “At least you think it would be pleasurable.”
“Well, I think that speaks more of my own self confidence than yours.”

Surprised, Devon laughed in a short bark. Ari turned and walked out of his office. He’d been looking for a new distraction and she was just what he needed.

Completed Works

Secrets, Lies, & Betrayal Series:

The Virgins Club:

Lipstick Diaries:

Solo Romances:

The Young and The Powerful